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Recently Peter Sallis (Wallace in Wallace & Gromit, Cleggy in Last of the Summer Wine, and Rat in Wind in the Willows.) has died. Now this came as a complete shock to me but... my uncle had to be hospitalised a week or 2 ago. He's a diabetic and he's on life support. Unfortunately, he'll be taken off life support tomorrow and I don't know how long he has left. I'll give out updates as the days go on...
My entire family is falling apart...
My entire family is falling apart...
Merry Christmas... I guess...
After the tragic passing of my godmother earlier this month I just can't be happy for Christmas anymore. Time heals all wounds says everyone but it leaves behind scars. This scar is deeper than any I've been dealt before. I'll at least try to enjoy the holidays but it'll be very difficult to do so. I thought 2021 would've killed me mentally but 2023 destroyed me both mentally and emotionally. I highly doubt that I'll ever be the same again. I'll try to carry on for my godmother's sake but for the most part I'll be alone in doing so. Enjoy your Christmas everyone but for me this Christmas and every other Christmas from now on will be darker than darkness itself. Every mother's day, birthday and Christmas from now on I've one less present to give and one less to receive (for birthdays and Christmases) and it hurts me deeply.
Now comes the hardest part... life without her.
My godmother's cremation was yesterday and to say I was crying is an understatement... I was inconsolable. Even now I'm crying. For the past few days I couldn't sleep properly, couldn't eat much, couldn't stop crying, or even smile. Her loss has broken me beyond all reason. She was fun-loving, caring and selfless and thought of those she loved without fail. All the fun is gone forever as she was the only one who understood me more than my own mother. The chosen songs made me break down big time but the last one called "Jealous of the Angels" by Donna Taggart... the lyrics to the song hit me like a convoy of 18-wheelers without brakes. I know she's no longer in pain or suffering but I know I'm selfish for saying that I wished she beaten Leukemia and was still alive. I knew her all my life but the past 16 months. She never complained about fighting her illness. People say God is merciful but at this stage for me he seems sadistic but that's the pain talking. Right now I
Rest in peace Godmother.
A few hours ago my mother told me that my godmother passed away. She was diagnosed with Leukemia back in July 2022 but everything the doctors tried sadly failed. The news felt like a dagger was plunged through my heart many times. The last time I felt that was back in March 2015 when my aunt died. She was fun, had a great sense of humour and understood me better than my own mother. We got along great together with a lot of witty banter. Sadly all of that is gone now and I'm left without another relative that I cared so much about. I kept hoping that she'd beat that damn Leukemia but no luck and no hope. Her death has left a void that can never be filled. All I can say is that she's no longer suffering from Leukemia. Rest in peace Gina, you're free of suffering now while the rest of us mourn your loss. You'll always be missed.
Discord help
This is really frustrating. I restarted my computer due to updates and now my desktop version of Discord is failing to download its own updates. I've tried everything I could think of but it's still stuck on the checking for updates->downloading 1 of 6 updates->update failed-retrying in 30 seconds cycle. Any help would be appreciated but please note that I'm not a computer wiz.
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sorry to hear the terrible experiences your dealing with. I lost my grandma in 2015 and my uncle last year.